I am not the person I was back when I began writing. 
My time of stepping back from all community involvement and pressures has helped me see that I had been overdoing  again and again. 
 I had an expectation of recognition and reward. 
 I was right, others were wrong. 
I wore my heart out emotionally and physically. 
My body, sight and hearing were compromised.
Not knowing I was searching for self,  Yvonne A Jennings set off on a quest to find sacred souls and places, and discovered Yevie aka Yvonne A McKerrow Jennings.
My journey of being totally vulnerable in separating from my cosy environment and known community, has me looking in the mirror and around me with new eyes.
Now- I am learning to know and love myself and who I am- I wonder if my kids will recognise that on my return...
I am accepting my age and have stopped fighting ageing.
I have stopped bitching and moaning about being born a girl in a male dominated, misogynist family and community.
There are 33 gender identifying types and I  now identify with Omnigender- translates to all genders.
 My upbringing in a family where males were favoured, combined with a feisty nature and acute sense of justice, led me to morph into whichever behaviour was relevant at the time.
My Mum and Dad and grandmothers would be proud of me having worked through  the pain and fear of exposing my vulnerable self.
Recently, I have experienced such a wealth of happiness, luck and wonder that I have been deathly afraid.
My old “I do not deserve such wealth because I am an unworthy, worthless, shame-filled person” spoke up loudly instead of covertly this time.
She spoke so loudly that she stopped me in my tracks.
I made my self sick to numb it all down. 
I grew an ugly spreading cold sore all over my nose
I analysed my unworthiness for a particular award I had been offered and discovered that I am most worthy.
I did the WTF thing. 
I asked my angel guides to help me. 
I stepped back, stripped down to my soul. 
I looked honestly into my own eyes.
I listened to my heart and my soul. 
I liked what I saw and heard.
I eat and drink what I need to nourish my body, soul and spirit.
I walk to strengthen this body and am grateful for what I can do.
I am reaching out to get my PHD in careing and commitment again.
I am happy.